It's Her/His-Day!

           It's been few days since my stans birthdays. Really, i'm just celebrating in my heart.  And I think celebrating T.O.P birthday during MYAlive con was enough. But hahahha I just feeling giddy to share and express it to u. So to T.O.P happy birthday to u. May God bless you and be healthy, please don't be soo gay.lmao forgive for my statement. Anyway I wish u become great musician/rapper/actor as well. Stay with BigBang forever. Myhusbandisabingu for today.lol!

birhday boy,you, forver 5yr old kid Tabi!

              Not to forget to 2NE1 member older sister, Sandara Park. You always looks young and bright. May you stay true to yourself. Find love this year. I'm rooting for your future. Kick that bish who wanna get in your way. I'll have to kil you if u chose GD tho.lol..funky joke, sis. Btw Happy Birthday. YG family rocks!

It's Corn Day[CODAY]

             Today as i become super damn-ass lazy, I started to surfing and surfing like there's no tomorrow. It's like i'm freaking 'malas' you know to study for the upcoming exam. My body are sore and tired with the stupid headache attacked my head like A BOSS. I need my head to study kay. It's not like my brain on my knee that the killer pain doesn't bother me when it suddenly happen at my head.

             Seriously, I just can afford breads today. To stroll down the market @ groceries stores nearby, erkk well that'll never happen in my current state. Well, the fact is the stores within a block from my apartment which very cool enough to say, 'B, you are for sho sooo damn lazy.Even to stuff your own stomach'.Puhahahahahha. I'm thinking of sweet corn right now. Really, really really craving for them dun care if it's baked corn oh my gosh that's so appetizing.Okay, I need to maintain my body or else gonna be bloated like Mr.Balloon. Talking bout corn and bloated-body, I know how you feel now Bommi. Hahahaaa>>>>>awkward laugh.

oh trust me i can feel you! corn!corn!

Myhusband is in me

you are hero in my heart too, Ji

YGStans light up the yellow sea

           When you feel like the day was soo long what you want to do? Well, seriously what a dull life i have staying in a room for 24 hours a day.It's best to go to a concert and party like lililalaallala.. The best part is that they band make concert in your house. 'get low girls.. party like a times up. Just go crazy more than ever'. Sort of but i'm not that crazy to go endorsing wild party like that.. no no no i'm such an innocent girl guyss.. LOL. Don't misunderstood me. (-,-)

i'm innocent, dont judge me.

           I tell you what I'm not a k-pop @ kepap@Kepop girl or whatsoever they called the pretty guys/girls back from Seoul right now. To honest i am best defined as YGStans yeah and it's not to my liking people calling k-pop girl because well i'll get really really pissed off. You can call me weird or 'what's wrong with her? Is YG not k-pop?', what a madness thoughts', yada yada yada.. I don't care. It's not that American pop you called them A-Pop<<<<Ehh??! I'm Malaysian, so is my country's music called M-pop then? LOLOLOLOL tell me tell me that's sound more like a candy to me rather than a genre. I would define YG as company who produce genius musician that born within them-each individuals- My stans would be BigBang and 2NE1. They're international star.True musician which their song can reach every souls without failing. They can just set the roof on fire. Close enough to make a mother and her daughter cling together screaming their names. What a charm they got! Tonight make this blazing-cold night went on faiyahhhhh, boys!

ok just burn tonight, ri

Pretty Girl Owned The World

       When i woke p and wanna get dressed up, i tied my hair here and there. Lmao this issomething i never done in zillion times. So when I looked up at the mirror, i'm like lol! This is definitely not my thing okay like hairstyling?? Well i can go gaga on myself. Buhahahhahaha.. Well, at least i'm looking like this weird-cutie princess.

maynn, that words killing me!lmao..

But you know with this moose @ whatshoever style i've done on my hair i'm still a cute one tho..buhahahhahha such a laughing stock isn't it. People I wsnt to clarified a thing here, go praise yourself instead of ah, i'm looking fuqly fat, Oh u look skinnier, my!your skin are fairer than mine etc etc..' Comeon girl i'm black not not that charcoal-black but yeah i'm not fair but i'm amazingly cute and sweet looking girl. Yeah something like that. Don't criticize yourself too hard. Your body would hate you too. I love my body and i'm freaking cute. Lol!!Its not that hard. whoever want to bash you, for out loud girls please dissing them once a while for good. Those bish ain't got nothing on you. But don't go gaga telling ppl every single sec ' hey, I'm fuqing pretty, hey!look am i gorgeous' for 24h/7days. That's really make you deserves some free-bit** slap then. Well again we're pretty girls of the world, right? We owned the boys< <<<Ehh?!

yeah, make all the moose go cutie moose gal >.<

This is how music born!

"I think I began to expand my thoughts about the world. The world is so chaotic, but there are still people who live difficult lives without the ability to obtain strength. But those very people are either people who look over me and Big Bang, or people who listen to our music. I wanted those people to feel vicarious satisfaction when listening to anyone’s music. That’s why I began to think of different methods to allow people to feel that satisfaction".

[PERSONAL] Wow its been a while!

I have mixed feelings to start writing again. I mean wow i really not a kind who love to writes but lately i felt that i have lots to express.So I decided I wanna write some more. Be more affectionate with my babyblog. Lol. At some point yeah I'm just lonely and sometimes i'll have desperate day and I'll need something to lash out my frustation. Haaa.. 

For some odd reason, I walk out today with my roommates taking a fresh air like come on gimmi time to breathe. The room now are way too suffocating for me with tons of books on the table, review papers on bed notes etc.. I just wanna chill out these few hours. LOL its just half n hour give me a break. But that's student life right guys. I'm taking nursing degree this year.Another 4 yrs to completed. I'm seriously not in the right path if u guys ask me how i enter this bizarre world  i don't even know. Well i guess luck not on my side this time. Yes I went berserk for a month not able to fitted in here but suddenly the world that's been so UNREAL to me have become a place where i plant my dream. You see, if u know me i'm not that kind of a person who loves to communicate esp with new ppl around me. I'm not a person who easily opened up to someone but when i do I seriously affectionate to them. I'm more into arts n grafic n research more into fashion. I'm like 'hey guys one day imma gonna be a fashion designer, wedding planner etc'. These random thoughts always fills me in.

But this place somehow introduce me to the new life>>>>> The True Meaning Of Life. A place where I become so acquainted with that I even share the pain my patients felt. For sho i'm a newbie here just learning one @ two simplest things on nursing skills but helping others make me realize 'wow, really this simple help that i can offer make ppl touched to bottom of their heart!!'. I'm like 'wow, really I can really opened up with ppl this easily'. It bear me lots of efforts actually. From here, i learn one thing if u have no heart in doing something and no efforts to the things u already hate/not interested in ofc u will drown, u'll felt suffocated.

One day i manage a patient who have 'Brain Abcess'. Maybe i can call him 'H' here. Such a young boy, 18 yrs old younger than me with so much things that a young boy like him can dream of in the future, just lying flat on the bed in his mother hug. If u can see the scene the mother's love beyond anything magnificient in this world.Let go all the 7 Wonders in this world, u'll find that that the teary eyes of a mother who cant even decide whats the best for his son other waiting for a MIRACLE is such a tormenting period. The believe in Miracle by God's will really shake your breathe n get u teary eyed. You wouldn't expect how a surgeon say ' I couldn't proceed the surgery as it'll mean death to your son. We prayed miracle happened with the alternative that we've chosed!'. As a witness, even i felt like a slap on my face when the surgeon made his decison eventho 'H' not my child. I felt my breathe unstable n my eyes went wet. She just calmly replies, ' I believe in your decision.What you think best is best for me and my son too.' Again the whole day that young boy slept in his mother's tight hug. God bless you.

In this profession, i see the great thing in nursing. How we share the patients's pain how we weed together before the surgery how we communicate better among society. This is a profession that i'm proud of. Nurse-to-be Bella. Its intimidating yet such a lovely feelings.