[LETTER TO A BEST-FRIEND]
I'm okay.. emmm just fraek out la nk exam ni. ak mcm lost la pinaz. really2 lost.. I'm like not strong enough to do nursing. i'm feel like lost lah. at first up until last week i was in fire mode, that even i've burnt in fire, i'm going to make and do nursing. make it a success, but its like someone always watching over me. macam tgh tggu j peluang nk cari kslhn ak n then jatuhkan ak. em i'm like suffocating now.my heart felt really uncomfortable, like heavy metal sunk deep in my heart. dense!! n i suspected this person la... u see since i'm very dominant(loud, ckp byk, etc) dia macm hate nak mampos dgn ak or tak senang kowt. always said that's my strength( being dominant)but perlu ke u nak keep strength tu?? is it necessary being dominant? <<erk whateva lah.. xkn nak jadi pasif cam ulat gonggok tu.. pemalu bagai??tak puas hati ak terlalu dominant k? ak rasa cam bese. tak over pon. not satisfied, just come n spit it on ma face la tak yah ckp puzzle2 bagai. ak ni lembap sket tapi bab2 sentap ni mungkin laju la nak catchup!!!! weii its like everything went wrong with me. like i'm not needed in the batch. wallawei.... LOST N SEDIH NAK MAMPOS. mcm nak hug ko skrg n nangis puas2 @ nangis raong2 dlm toilet tp maluuuuu.. em well maybe ak just jadi ulat gonggok n skrg pon last week ak da start mogok already. shit!
Pinaz BoomBoom you are the best friend eva.
When everything like hell for me, you always there for me. You are my soft pillow. You are great honeybee.
Love ya equally like my Jibby.
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